well here i am to update everything that's gonna happen
1stly let's start with things at sp
well basically i still do not have teamwork with them!
the problem got to be me myself!
things always turn nasty no matter how optimistic i try to be
i told myself everything is going to be alright all the time
but then nothing is ever gonna be
nothing is going to be right!
oh well, wat more can i say?
life kinda of sucks for me now!
because my mind can't help me to get through myself
i hope one day my mind would tell myself something my mouth told myself!
hey it's okay to make mistake
it's alright to be weak
but stand up from it, from everything
stop making urself weaker with negative thinking!
u gonna be fine! u can do it!!
i hope my mind can tell me that!~
but it won't be possible enh?
y can't everything be simple!
this is a stage i must go through by myself no matter wat!
my mind stop making things worst!
dun make a mess out of simple stuff! please!!
i beg of myself!!
oh well! not going for sp training anymore until polite start
i believe sp will do good and well
without me even better, i know it!!
i won't get to mess their training for them!!
because i kinda out of my mind during those training!
well the important issue is the kl trip!
coach bl haven't reply me anything!
oh god! please make it simple
i promise to eat vege!!
well try? and not eat meat for a week!!
i will not break this promise if the results turn out good
hope everything would be fine!!
please!! i am somehow a contradicting person!!
well off to next nat's training!
gosh life in there sure isn't easy!
feel so tired after every training!
and then they increasing training to 5 times a week!
all those stuff are happening!
ytd was fruitful to me!
i get to learn something awesome!
so i am glad but then how would everything turns out?!
everytime my hp rings i am scared
dunno who is it?
and wat would happen!
it seriously isn't easy!
life sucks this way!
hope my relieving stress activities can help!!
please help!!
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